Sunday, September 28, 2014

September 28, 2014

Today was supposed to be the first day of school.  However, the school building is not quite finished yet.  So, work is still starting at 9:30 and we work until 6:00.

I had quite a disturbing dream last night.  Most dreams can involve wild plots and usually they are personal and I don't write them down for all the world to read, but if someone could shed some light on this one, I would appreciate it.

In my dream, I travel back in time like 150 years.  I see myself happy with this wealthy gentleman.  Except this gentlemen, is not shallow like most wealthy men.  He has an imagination and a golden heart.  Of course because of his family's fortune, he is known throughout the world. 

He is very kind to me, and he courts me properly.  I fall in love with him, but I do not make him aware of my feelings.  Time goes by and we become closer and closer.  Never doing anything improperly.  He asks me to marry him many times and I tell him, "I need to take care of my family."

Then all of a sudden, he starts aging.  I find that I am holding him in my arms, he asks me to kiss him just one time and says he has always loved me.  I cry to him, "What is happening?  Why are you dying?"  He tells me not to cry.  I say to him, "You cannot die.  I love you!" 

He said, "don't worry, you will cry and when you wake up you will see this is a dream, but I want you to know something.  You will find my soul in another man very soon.  I will come back to take care of you soon.  I love you and I will find you."

With that he vanished in my arms, into nothing.  I was sitting there crying and weeping for my lost love.  When I woke up, sure enough my eyes were filled with tears.  I really felt like I was there with him.  I was very upset this morning.  I just kept remembering him say, "I will find you soon.  Soon, I will find you, soon."

So, the question is, the fact that I am so upset still, after dreaming this seven hours ago, was it de'ja vu?  Did it really happen one day in my life?  Was it a past life experience and now I am just remembering it?  Or was it just a dream which upset me because I am missing the life I could have had if I did not make all the wrong choices?  What is your analysis?

The strangest thing of all, is that I really feel like I lost him.  Like he was really part of my life.  If he does come back into another man's body, how will I know it is him?

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